Today I will be sharing Silvia's Maternity photography session with you and her experience through her pregnancy. Thank you so much Silvia for sharing your honest thought and feelings and for being a guest writer on my blog!
Turns out I was pregnant...
"My boyfriend and I have been together for almost ten years. We had talked about having a baby in the near future, once I finished school and got my business degree. But of course things don't always go as planned. I got pregnant before that.
I wish I could tell you that it happened like in the movies... that we both sat on our bathroom floor anxiously waiting to read the word "pregnant" on a pee stick. And that when we did we gazed into each other's eyes and kissed and hugged and called our families. But that's not really how it happened.
It was mid February 2018, I scheduled an appointment with my doctor because I had been feeling really tired lately and it didn't feel normal. I thought I might have anemia. Well long story short, turns out I was pregnant. When they told me I was shocked because I hadn't necessarily missed a period, it just seemed lighter. But by the looks of it, our birth control had failed us.
As soon as I left the doctor's office I called both of my sisters. At first I was really excited to tell them, even though I was still in shock. But as I told them and I heard the words coming out of my mouth… I bursted into tears. Suddenly I felt scared, happy, nervous, terrified, and the list goes on. Then, I felt guilt for feeling all these negative emotions. Shouldn't I have just been HAPPY? Was I already a bad mom for feeling scared and nervous?
The next step was telling my boyfriend. I wanted to wait until I had an ultrasound picture to show him. But I wasn't able to schedule one till two weeks after. It was the hardest two weeks of my life. I felt horrible for not sharing the news but I really wanted him to SEE the little human growing in my tummy. When I told him, just like me he was shocked. I mean we really weren't expecting it. I think it was surreal. But of course once those fears subsided we were thrilled.
Once I found out the baby's gender I had two onesies costom made. One read "I've waited my whole life to meet you daddy" and the other had a cartoon Darth Vader and little princess Leia that read "daddy's princess." I placed them on our bed one afternoon with an announcement board that read "baby girl arriving October". When my boyfriend got home and walked into the room his mouth dropped. I will never forget his face and his excitement, it was priceless.
When we told our families they were stoked. Especially my family because this baby would be the first grandchild.
It was around 7 months when my tummy really popped! And around the same time I really truly started to feel my baby move and that was aconstant reminder of a little one growing inside.
I'm a Virgo, and naturally a nurturer. So being pregnant just came natural I think. I took care of my health and always prioritized my baby's health. I loved being pregnant.People are extra nice to you, they open doors for you they let you cut in line, it comes with good perks :) And of course the extra extra care from my boyfriend was a big plus.
Nearing the end of my pregnancy I started to consider professional maternity pictures. The only reason why I second guessed it was because by then I felt huge, honestly even ugly. Don't get me wrong I was happy my body was nurturing a baby but let's be honest as women we're always concerned about our weight and how our bodies look. I asked my family and close friends what they thought and they all strongly suggested I should take professional maternity pictures. I decided to do my research and came across Ani Portraits. I read all the good reviews and I decided to call her.
When I met Ani she talked to me about the process and really calmed me and put me at ease. Her words where touching and very assuring. The day of my maternity photoshoot I was excited yet a little nervous. I actually did nude silhouette pictures. Ani just made me feel soooo pretty. By the end of my photo session I was really feeling myself, and felt beautiful even with my big belly. Now I look at those pictures and I am soooo glad I decided to take them. They are the most precious memories I have of my little angel before I met her."